So Vain That Pain（虚荣至痛）

作为人生第一张完整概念的个人专辑，用四个字概括我的24年就是“虚荣至痛”。从有记忆开始我便是个虚荣的人，小时候偷妈妈的钱去买最新款的游戏机和陀螺悠悠球，再到初中逼着家里买了1399的詹姆斯11篮球鞋尽管当时不怎么会打，买了各种各样的运动装备和球衣就为了打球的时候能够看上去很厉害，高中的我误打误撞接触了艺考同时所谓的街头文化和时尚,两个月不吃饭把所有的生活费拿来买喷泡，在北京学习却借同学的倒钩来拍照假装是自己的，一定要追求supreme一定要每天穿的不重样，最后大学依旧竭尽全力让自己看起来光鲜亮丽与众不同，最后换来了什么？换来的只有无止尽的痛苦....小学的时候被班主任拎到讲台上，大声问所有人：班上还有一位同学愿意和李浩然做同桌吗？你妈妈给你取名字叫李浩然，你怎么一点浩然正气都没有呢？初中的时候被校园霸凌，十来二十人围着我打围着我踹，我满身伤回到家却还要被骂说是我在外面闯祸了？高中的时候每天独来独往唯一的“朋友”却一直看不起我，说我每天求着和他一起玩缠着他，艺考的时候在北京集训，班上所有的人打车结伴而行去团建，最后把我一个人留在了班里，大学的时候用尽全力去爱一个女生结果自己只是小三，打球的时候被欺负整个专业的人都站在我的对立面推我......这些回忆如梦魇般缠绕着我，我把我的经历我的故事用我的音乐表达出来，就有了这张耗时超过2年的专辑《虚荣至痛》
As I reflect on my life through my first complete concept album, four words summarize my 24 years: 'Vanity to Pain'. From my earliest memories, vanity has driven me. As a child, I stole money from my mom to buy the latest gaming consoles and spinning tops. In middle school, I pressured my family to buy a pair of LeBron 11 basketball shoes for 1399 RMB, even though I barely played. I accumulated various sports gear and jerseys just to look impressive on the court. High school brought an accidental dive into art exams and what's known as street culture and fashion. I skipped meals for two months to save all my living expenses to buy sneakers. In Beijing, I borrowed a classmate's Air Jordan 1 Retro 'Bred' for photos, pretending they were mine. I had to chase the latest Supreme drops and wear different outfits every day. What did all this striving for a glossy and unique appearance get me? Nothing but endless pain.

In elementary school, the teacher dragged me in front of the class and loudly asked if anyone was willing to sit with Li Haoran, questioning how I could have such a name without any nobility of character. In middle school, I was bullied by groups of 20, coming home injured only to be scolded for causing trouble. In high school, I wandered alone, the only 'friend' I had looked down on me, saying I clung to him desperately. During my art school prep in Beijing, everyone else took cabs together to team-building activities, leaving me alone in the classroom. In college, I loved a girl with all my heart only to find out I was the other man. On the basketball court, I was bullied, with everyone in my major against me, pushing me around... These memories haunt me like nightmares. I've poured my experiences and stories into my music, culminating in this album, which took over two years to complete, titled 'So Vain That Pain'."